2006-10-24
un-
i want to give something outward and bridge the gap between me and the rest of the world, but all i have are these stupid words. and i am sick of these words. they are so un-poignant and bland. they are the unoriginal woes of a girl trying to adapt to her new life. fuck that.
and now i'm constantly oscillating between struggling with myself and my identity, and the rest of the surrounding shit that's out there, like people and classes "and things of that nature." i always manage to have some sort of hang-up with either one of them; never am i in a contented harmony with both. i bet some drugs could really change that. i'm kidding.
life is just boring because my perspective right now is really sucking. nothing satisfies, and i always want more and impose this ridiculously positive image on stuff when really the stuff is just being what it actually is and i'm a moron about it.
i'm not listening to enough music. right now i want the "office space" soundtrack.
i don't know what i'm going to do. more of what i have been doing probably. i wish i could just fall asleep. then i wouldn't have to deal with this existence stuff because it's pretty lame.
leesah-likes at 5:29 p.m.