2005-05-22
but most of all when snowflakes fall
i feel humbled, but good.
paranoia sets in with this english paper. i am stressing far too much over it, and i haven't even written anything down yet. i want to get to the point where i don't give a shit about it, that would be so glorious.
i want everyone i know to be so happy. all of these people, just to have the best time. for you to get what you want from this life and to know and enjoy that you have it. please, have an incredible life. this applies to everyone i know, except maybe my ex-boyfriend. we broke up almost three months ago and i've done a good job getting over it at my own pace, but i still don't want him to be happy. i really hope he's okay, and doing fine, but not happy. i'm not sure why, and i'm trying to seek a balance between "oh that's understandable after all that happened" and "i think i am big enough of a person to just sincerely wish him the best." as for everyone else though, sheesh, seriously. i wish you the best in life. and if i can be a part of it, that is really swell because i want to be.
but right now i want nothing more than to see you genuinely smile. you. really.
this internet business gets duller by the minute. don't expect an update for a long while, because it may not come any time soon.
I sincerely want to say
I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this
I wish you love
And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love
the wind is out, i'll go to it. until next time!
leesah-likes at 3:34 p.m.