2005-03-13
colors
i didn't cry at all today. and it's not pathetic that that's an accomplishment.
i'm starting to notice my hair all over the place.
i'm also starting to realize that the dumbest thing i could do is forget the past. i've been looking thorough mine, even on this website, and i see some pure and justified happiness. you know what, i like looking what i've written. i've been really good about accurately expressing myself. this journal is defintely the best one i know. i do regret following other's leads though. eric once had a great thought on it all. http://erkmt.blogspot.com/2004/08/from-one-blogger-to-others.html
i keep hearing songs and trying not to think. sentimentality sucks. it's just a parking space, it's just a tree, it's just a necklace, it's just a koosh. these things, in essence, are nothing more.
in fact, i am so sick of typing about this shit. it was a whole week ago. i'm over it. i don't want any pity or concern. i have a lot of things to do. and as dan told me in canadian, "keep yer' stick on dee ice."
the moon looks pretty cool tonight. the church bells would ring. i was walking down main today and smiled at this old guy who was smoking a cigarette. "Hi," i told him. You look like a happy young lady, he said to me. and i was. the sky was offering a few sparse snowfakes, and my hands were in my pockets as my purple feet stepped forward. these stars are hazy right now, but they are everyone's.
leesah-likes at 9:47 p.m.