2004-10-03
swallowing pain
i do not feel too good right now.
my throat is sore and i woke up after seven hours of sleep to the pain of each swallow.
i don't feel like doing my math homework, so i won't.
i had a great weekend. pleasure.
i am starting to stress about school some more. i resent one of my teachers and another one frustrates me (both of them, actually, since those emotions seem to be somewhat correlated). i know that's not a big deal for some people, but it is for me.
i've been having lots of hot soup and the area just beyond the beginning of my tongue is raw like someone took a cheese grater across(t) it.
when julian was dancing last night, every once in a while people would just watch him. people we didn't know, they would stand and look at him move. i pitied them. they couldn't just let go and do it themselves. dance like no one's watching.
i am in a very vulnerable physical state. this is not selfdeprecation but actuality. i sore all over (no typo, i meant that).
it really pisses me off when people have natural talent and they don't have to work like i do. that makes me very angry.
does what happen happen because i forsee it or just because it was going to and i just happened to know it? i saw it coming. i didn't dodge it. i'm sick of everyone thinking i overstress these sort of things because i really don't, they just have the wrong perception. it's what i do, who the hell cares if it works if it is just what i do i'm not going to change.
i probably should stop venting and whining. i have it so incredibly good, but i dread the obligations of the future. i could really use a week's hiatus about now. i want to go to figi. please consider "brand new colony."
i'm tired but i won't sleep. i won't be talking so much because it hurts. bubblebathism has escape me upon the returning of the family. i should do something.
monday is tomorrow
leesah-likes at 5:47 p.m.