2005-01-24
lewner
changes are acoming. it'll be a brand new semester. speech will be over with. school is calming down with nitrates in legumes being the main thorn in the side. sleep should be prevalent and deep, but it fails momentarily.
i don't know about speech. if it were possible to keep going after these weeks, i would do it out of obligation instead of desire. i'm a little bored with it. now is not the time for doubts. practice will be intense. the pressure is on and now is the time to deliver. it all sounds so stupid, and i'm not even talking about a sport.
oh, the superbowl is coming up soon. the only reason i know is because i saw it on the side of anders' pepsi can. the 39th one. i think he thought i was making a silent spectacle out of him, and i didn't mean to do that. i've never been particularly talented when it comes to the card game uno.
i tried to tell petie that life is a little boring right now. i have moments when my level of existing seems heightened and incredibly wonderful, and those are only with one other and won't be written about here. besides that, everything is collapsing on itself in some weird sad way. and it's my responsibility to lift it all up and make it work.
i don't know what i'll do with my time. i won't have the mental discipline to nightly scrutinize what i need to do in all of my classes. maybe i'll start reading recreationally like i used to. yeah, and walk to the library. and the park. and see more of people that i haven't been. oh and bead necklaces. yeah, that sounds really nice. i'll get out more.
i wish i had something really good to say. i'm ok, things are relatively good and i don't know what is going to happen yet.
the sunset was really good last night. it set in the proper west and the clouds spanned acrosst the sky like a marbled peach. it's funny to think about, but people make "sky" plural. skies. there are more than just one. but you and i share our sky, we are under the same one. the moon is stellar, too. it's full tomorrow night (tuesday), so be sure to check that. the stars are out. they always are, but sometimes you can see them.
i'm not sure what else to say, my life is in a weird phase right now that is a partial exhale that is interrupted but one more last heave. hopefully there's enough oxygen to go round.
leesah-likes at 9:35 p.m.