2005-01-08
sight of hind
i'm all bored and online by myself. we got back pretty early. it was all a whirr, but i think i picked up on some stuff. nothing significant, but in hindsight i've realized that the more time i spend with people, the better senses of their identity i get. i know that this is a "duh" statement, but it's interesting to see it in application. it's compelling to "feel" people out and see who they are, the way they think and react to others and their motives.
diana is sweet, but she is more. i'm not sure what. she holds hands with her dad.
dan lets diana lean on him when she is fatigued and tired, and he tries to think nothing of it. he has some good pickup lines we discussed. "i can see why that outfit is so becoming on you, because if i were on you i would be coming too."
amanda likes to sometimes say semi-mean things to people and tag on "just kidding" to the end of it. katy gave her the pink diva gloves she was wearing, that made me smile. i got lots of compliments on my hat.
petie and i can laugh at really dumb things. i like that she can scrunch her nose at my high standards and is comfortable writing with a really dull pencils.
jarrett twamley is not ashamed that he has never had a date. he's driven a ferrari, and it's bright red as you would imagine. he is aware of other people in a kind way.
michael understands his wardrobe in ways deeper than superficial. the white corner of the envelop of the letter that his dad wrote him sticks out of his jacket a little. it's really nice. not the note (i would never ask to read it), but the idea.
julian admits he exaggerates sometimes or is too dramatic, he purposefully tries to be more exuberant around ali, it seems. he has the casual ability to ask eric if he wants to make gay porn with him. and you wonder if i laughed at that.
eric helped me look for my ring, and we watched debate rounds together (by assignment). he would start to take notes on the debate for constructive criticism or something, but i think he actually almost realized that he had no idea what was going on anyway so he shouldn't even try.
...before you get bored in all of this dull nonsense, remember that i'm just typing my mind and it's not meant for any other purpose than just that.
miss mccurdy was pretty, i think, but most people might not. she had auburn hair. her team flew in from boise, and she would scribble down notes and then give informative speeches on "pepsi vs coke" and "smallpox." she was very professional and a skilled speaker. mccurdy didn't break finals. it has been said that it is all a matter of luck as to who makes it. i might be true.
only rich kids can be in speech in the pacific northwest, because they have to be able to afford $70 fees each weekend along with additional costs. they also speak hundreds of words a minute incomprehensibly fast, which involves gasping for air momentarily and developing weird body movements. debate is life, the kids are weird and a little sick at times.
senger is irrational. but could i really drop the class? two year committment is kindof dumb. but i've already come this far. this issue is currently one of my biggest struggles. to drop or not to drop? i still don't know yet.
i finished the swellfoot book. i should probably study boot and sandal verbs in the preterite, as lame as that sounds.
josh asked me on the bus what the most romantic thing is that someone could ever do for me to completely swipe me off my feet. i said bring me a hippo. like, a real one. preferably sedated (in some gentle humorous way, of course) so that it wouldn't eat me. we had lots of fun questions.
i don't know if i believe in God. i think i want to. faith is beautiful. this has nothing to do with anything at all- really it doesn't- i'm just saying.
still really bored. been typing for a while now. nothing much to do. won't do school work. don't feel like sleeping. i never seem to take the necklace off anymore. maybe when i bathe (which is really rare, of course). i want some lemonade. it is quiet and warm.
everyone and their hammer has seen napoleon dynamite and they like to quote it.
*impromptu topics i could have chosen to speak on this weekend but rejected*
-diet vs regular
-orange kiwi
-"you know someone's ugly if they're ugly when they smile"
-peter gabriel
-dysentary
-"grandparents and children are alike in that they have a common enemy"
... there were a lot more, all equally absurd and degrading.
i didn't come here to talk about speech, honestly, it just kind of came up in my mind.
i haven't been thinking about edward at all lately. i wonder how he is. probably really regular. i would like to trade places with him for a day. just to see what it's like. that's kind of a boring thing to type about. but still.
school is dumb, but so am i.
i forget what it's like for everything to be hot and green outside. dan said he heard some kid give a speech on hating the sun. i heard a kid say that "the odyssey" is completely useless and dumb. mikenna heard a girl say that the 9/11 pilots would have been able to prevent the hijaking if only they had more caffeine. amylase. ugh.
maybe i'll wrap this up. i actually am kind of tired, and no one's really online. tomorrow i get to work a lot, but hopefully not too much. i'll wake up early to try to get it all over with. goodnight to myself, since i'm the only one around anyway. it's all been real, in hindsight.
leesah-likes at 10:48 p.m.