2004-05-24
an ode to pigs
people suprise you. aska was fat once. sarah is decent. monteen is really quite stupid and flaky. ron sings in choir. gorp likes ballet. betreena's pad stuck to her binder. people suprise you.
actually been thinking about that first truth since i heared it today. her, fat? i've always felt my weight has been a barrier to relate to people. but she used to weigh 130 lbs back in the day, sarah says. she was like me? now she doesn't eat. what does this change? about anyone?
the pigs in animal farm were really smart and gluttonous. they ate and did all that pleasure them. those are pigs, yeah. they make good pork among other things. remember the pig in lord of the flies? on the steak? how about the bay of pigs with kennedy?
i am ready for summer. this summer without all these damn classes to focus on i won't eat so much either. food is my drug. people back in polson can mess themselves up with whatever illegal stuff they want, but here with me, it's all about the pastas and candies. everyone has an outlet. i wish mine was healthier. who knows which of our substances will kill us first.
maybe i'll o.d. on fat and that will be it. unless i learn to shut my mouth. shut your mouth, open your eyes. god why am i writing this stuff?! what if someone reads it?!
ok so finding out she was fat was the highlight of my day. weird really odd stuff. i can't explain. i don't like her any more or any less, just feel like i know her better. but i don't. whatever. the bacon is calling. just joking.
leesah-likes at 10:00 p.m.