2005-09-24
pouncelicious
anticipatory enjoyment.
it's highschool. in some ways, that automatically makes it nostalgic. a football game, being part of the section that stands the entire time, making noise for the sake of making noise and hearing the announcer belt (funny verb) out names that I recognize from class. julian obscenely yelling, catlin's clear and smiling face, sean's grinning glances, dan standing tall and offering an arm the hundreds of times i almost fell over.
i passed out candy to the old people watching the parade from cars, to the kids who already had bushelfulls of it, to the principal. the truck alongside blasted the beatles- i've got to admit it's getting better, it's getting better all the time... and ben sat serenely on the hood as petie glanced around with her bright eyes, holding the big bag of candy. eric gave me handfuls of candy. ms. bowen was behind us bicycling, she looked so free. the trees made an awning going down the street. and so we press on.
dropping a class. like you're holding a carton of eggs, and you just release it from your grip. i dropped it! he called me a quitter and told me he was losing his best student. nice flattery, he's such a goofball. i've been demoted from top (self-inflictedly stressed out) history scholar to secretary to the Coach. the big C. yehhhh. no more wednesdays. like this will solve everything.
mom doesn't think so. i have bad luck.
what if i'm wrong?
i've always considered myself to be very mentally rational and sound. am i allowed to doubt myself? i don't think i do.
be brave. mwaHA, perfect. flathead braves homecoming dance. be brave. or... just have fun! sometimes courage does a body good, though. or daring. go for it!
allow yourself to feel sexy! you sooo can be. you are an animal! rawr! it's sooo not funny! you are! you go!
but don't do it like spring fling. ugh. spring fling. no expectations!
DANCE it OFF! you ROCK!
leesahpower. rawwwrrrrr. i pounce.
be chill, be you. you CAN be all of these things.
GREAT you. let's go!
leesah-likes at 12:08 p.m.