2004-12-21
i.t.b.a,e.
it's hard not to take anything for granted. as if it will always be there.
my mom was back in the hospital the other day. i can see on her face that she doesn't like the way i look at her when she tells me these things.
if you feel like drowning i would drown with you what i wouldnt do, i breathe my breath for you, nothing comes easy everything is hard ...and when you're careless i will care for you, if you want me to i'll breathe your air for you
there are so many things i love about Christmas. I know that edward will not like coming home very much. he is very focused and into his own world there, and coming home is a far stretch. it's not even really home to him, anyway. he's not nearly as familiar with this house as we are, and never really had any memorable experiences. he is the product of a full polson education, in that house back there. i wouldn't blame him if he didn't want to come. but it's christmas.
our neighbor in jette wrote, she wants us to sell the land. my dad clings to it. i don't know why. today he and i went to the supermarket. there was a petite oriental women dressed in mismatching animal fur prints. it was nice, she was reaching for drumsticks. not the meat, but the dessert popsicle things.
frankensence, mirth, what was the third?! fruitcake?!
i gave my bus driver fruitcake for christmas one year. merry christmas, vernon.
the best version of "white christmas" has been successfully implemented by the impossibles.
life gets dull too easily. work work work. SLED.
it's only ten, and i'm tired. will read then sleep. no more weird dreams. i think the beatles versions of christmas songs might actually sound good.
i still can't believe it's almost christmas. i always get these surreal perceptions at the worst times! like it's so incredible, i can't believe it's there!
..today i saw a jellyfish, and lots of signs of good luck. that's a secret.
yawn. nitrates. purpose of paper. CHRISTMAS. sleep.
leesah-likes at 10:02 p.m.