2004-10-12
hyde and seek
i am not going to ask myself why i am here. of course i have better things to do. but here i am.
i love impromptu. each time i get to stand up there and say something, anything. i can inform compel inspire amuse... everything! i can be as big as the room and the commander of the attention of all sitting in the audience. my thoughts can be released with efforted eloquence and performance. i can't type this. i can't type how much i love what i do or how i can't fathom how i can have a coach who can know so much about how to do it right. he knows everything i could ever need to know to succeed at this. i can so possibly likely achieve at it. yes, this is optimism but it's incredible to note. speech your mind, tell it to all, different every time, more of you interesting (verb) other people. ignore disregard miscomprend sentence clauses fragments stupid pieces do that stupid trail diction where you type out all the synonyms like in eric's godawful poems
pumpkins mean more. this is what you came here for, it's all here only not there because it is inbetween and invisible. you know this is incohereant you know it more than i do but you know it is because all the stuff i have yet to do tonight-all that work is still wandering in the back of my head as i escape these thoughts of everything you bring to me that is so much better. i hope you never ever leave. stay. i'll be here, no location but a definite idea. inhale it is breath it is beyond good, look out and upward. it's all there. i'm trying to be deceptive and stupid instead of mushy but it is very difficult.
i have some issues to address right now like future tests, targeting the uncertainties and questions. put your headphones on, stand tall. nothing is better than this. "this" happens to be a memory right now because it's not here. more locations awww forget it. i'll go work, hide has a double meaning. it is stretched.
leesah-likes at 7:37 p.m.