2004-07-18
me.
i am so incredibly sorry. i can't reply, i don't know if i'll ever be able to. there is a glaring problem, within some offhand sentence that causes me to disregard all of the following that the email contained, that being likeable, rambling paragraphed responses.
i simply cannot be one of two. i can't, so don't ask me to and don't think that's ok with me. it's not.
i cannot allow the person being addressed to just mess with people like this, no matter how worthy they are. one can't just put oneself out there and then just accept whomever decides to sing it back.
ugh, this bothers me so badly and it really shouldn't! it just makes it all a little bittersweet, i guess. but there you have it. there's nothing else i can say so i don't plan on emailing. the only thing the person being addressed (i refuse to use the term "you"!) can do is better explain all of this to me. i know that's possible, but it seemed to be completely disregarded. and since i feel like asking for way too much when i am in an unfit state of mind, i also wish i had EXACT ENTRY REFERENCES to exactly WHEN i was you and when i wasn't. heh, that there is a fine request, and it's me pretending to shout. i need this, because i am really really torn.
in unrelated news, california governor arnold schwarzenegger is quoted today as referring to legistlatures as "girly men." yes, this is funny.
leesah-likes at 5:35 p.m.