2004-06-26
surrendering?
tonight was fun. even though i am not so happy anymore. but it was good.
watching "office space" and spending an hour or so looking at weird funny shit online (ie dancing guitar-playing kittens) was funny. think rathergood.com type stuff. and eric is a really nifty kid. with suprisingly soft and wonderful hair. me like. we also played badminton and watched the lightning, heard the thunder.
and sorry, i really can't top that. maybe "so this is it" should be taken litterally by you. because i really do give up. maybe it's not that; i'm backing off instead. yeah. what's the point. (not a question) maybe i'm better than that. of course that's not what i think, that is rather conceited, but perhaps i am. why do this to myself? it happens and i get so tripped up, i'm gonna let this one be. so please, don't play with me. or don't even act regular, because i will think that is playing too. i really will. so let's just forget all of my perceptions and move on with where you were. everything was coo', i'm just too ambitious and hopeful and naive sometimes. we can forget this, right? let me know. or don't. sorry but i can't mention details, that could totally blow my cover off. don't wanna be exposed. at all. i'll just go to bed now, then. just don't get too smitten about it, ok? your head just might explode. yeah.
leesah-likes at 12:18 a.m.